Better Out Than In

That’s how Josh and I have been referring to SO-G’s existence outside of my womb crossing the 9 month threshold. (While technically she hung around in there for 41 weeks, that doesn’t seem to have the same milestone heft.) I have a couple of dear friends awaiting the arrival of their own wee ones, and while parenthood has certainly impacted my ability to retain information, I definitely still remember the anticipation of those last few weeks–practicing patience (not always very well), trying to be okay with the unknown (and often failing), and folding baby clothes (over and over and over again…damn that nesting instinct) while imagining what it would be like to meet the little being curled up inside my body.

These last 9 months have been: incredible, overwhelming, exhausting, rewarding, empowering, filled with self-doubt, overflowing with love. Every day, I have the gift of watching Sophia explore the world. And every day I try to rise to the challenge of doing everything I can to help her become…well, who knows? I want so much for her to be intrepid, courageous, curious, kind, compassionate, committed, flexible, resilient. And I’d like to think I can already see all of that glimmering within her. So I read her poetry and help her steady herself as she walks (walks!!!) and celebrate her first tooth and nosh on smoked salmon and goat cheese with her and babble and sing and dance and play in the leaves with her. And remind myself every day–when I’m frustrated with the cobwebs in the corner or the papers I haven’t graded or the books I haven’t read–what a bounty of blessings to have her here, in the world, with us.

About jessicaepierce

Jessica Pierce has worked a a farm hand, file clerk, bicycle mechanic and teaching poet. After taking up space every where from the San Joaquin Valley to Arkansas to Boston to Guatemala to India to Oakland, she now lives in Portland, Oregon with her husband, a sitar player, and their two year old daughter. As the lead teacher and language arts teacher at an alternative school outside of Portland, she works with high school students at risk of dropping out. She also teaches summer creative writing classes at St. Mary's Academy in downtown Portland. Her work has been published in the Painted Bridge Quarterly, the Christian Science Monitor weekly magazine, outwardlink.net, The Times of India (Kolkata), and the Northwest Review, which nominated her for Meridian magazine’s 2007 Best New Poets anthology. She’s had the privilege of studying with Rosanna Warren, Dorianne Laux, Pimone Triplett, Sam Witt and Jorie Graham.
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3 Responses to Better Out Than In

  1. Linda Cavallero says:

    So-G is adorable as well as clearly kind, intrepid, compassionate, courageous and all the rest! You can see it in her smile, her responsiveness, and hear it in her laugh. And the magic between you and her, the chemistry of it, is just right. Best wishes to So-G; she has made a great choice in parents!! Can’t wait to see all of you in person, Linda

  2. Hannah says:

    This made me cry! We cannot wait to meet our baby and get to know this little person as more than just kicks and squirms in my belly. His/her first playdate with Sophia sometime down the road will be epic!

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